The world around me
"BABY! BABY! BABY!"
It feels as if the universe is screaming these words in my direction 22.5 hours a day (sometimes my dreams give me a few hours break.)
I have always adored babies and somewhere, deep, deep, down it was just built in to my head that I would have 2.5 kids and 2 dogs -no white picket fence, I mean I am not unreasonable :)
So I met the boy, we dated, dated some more, and then dated a little more. ;) Then one fine December day, I gave him some Simpsons slippers and he gave me a diamond ring. Now, before you shake your head to much, you should know he Really liked the Simpsons, a lot.
Then, we moved 1200 miles away from the Virginia mountains we called home, got new jobs, and eventually, after giving "engaged" sometime to settle in, (to all our friends and families relief) we got married! It might soound like we werent sure but to the contrary my hubby told me when we started to seriously date, and he gave me my first mood ring as a pre, pre, pre-engagement promise ;)
It has been quite the experience so far and do not expect it to change anytime soon. I have discovered so much about myself and how delusional I was about my desire for a family.
Since the first day that my husband and I began "trying" to have a baby. The things that were so ingrained in my thought process that I didn't even realize they were there. I have adored all things baby since I was one myself. I started babysitting when I was in elementary school and have never stopped. My niece was born when I was 14 but I had already inherited 3 nieces and a nephew before that when my mom met my bonus dad and (another niece and nephew) my dad met my bonus mom. As of today I have
*Pretty sure it is obvious but in case you dont know we call "Step" parents/siblings/relatives "Bonus" instead because we have been lucky enough to have amazing additions to our families
We do things on the slow side so it is only fitting that we waited a few years after stopping birth control to find out why we hadnt had a baby yet.
As many times as I told myself that it didnt matter. That I have so many nieces and nephews I can hug on them. I tried to