Work and Play
Yesterday was an interesting day.
There has been a lot of stress at work because of some recent changes in the system we use. I work closely with two other women who up until recently were a lot of fun to work with. I have been taking their change in attitude personally but part of me wonders if it is just their way of coping with the stress. I feel like they have been acting way distant towards me which is really hard for me and a wall goes WAY up for me. It is very hard for me to fake that I am ok when certain things happen and I have noticed my tolerance and patience for them have gone WAY down. It has just been tense and ugly. I couldn't wait to get away.
When I got off work I went to the grocery store which was no biggie and then home to my kids and my DISASTER of a house.
I was pretty irritated but decided to get everybody into action. We cleaned for close to two hours, starting out with a little family meeting and making a list of all the things that we need to accomplish, preferably before school starts next week. The kids did great for the most part with their cleaning for the first hour or so and then it all turned into play and rough-housing which was kind of annoying but I knew we would be going to the beach soon where they could run off some energy so I tried to keep myself in check. My oldest told me last night I did a "fantastic" job on the kitchen :) It was cute for him to notice and to give me the appreciation and compliment. It was also nice to have a clean kitchen! I felt pretty accomplished last night.
I am trying to learn balance and consistency with the kids and housework and stuff. It's not stuff I was taught growing up and before I had kids I had a clean house but ever since kids, especially the last few years trying to balance full time work and the house has been really challenging and the house looks like a disaster WAY more than I'd like. Hopefully tonight will be more of the same, cleaning and organizing and getting things checked off of our to-do list. The kids have been warned so hopefully they will be ready and willing when I get off work.
After our house cleaning we headed to the beach for a Cub Scout bonfire. It was nice to see some familiar faces that we haven't seen much lately. The kids had a good time playing with eachother. It seems like the group was more connected as a whole last night which was really nice. It felt good to see it and be a part of it. As we were leaving my oldest, who has a really hard time feeling like he is likable and has friends, told me "that was so fun!". It is rare that he is so positive about something especially when it comes to interpersonal relationships so it was so good to hear. We talked about how friendships are built over time and that is what is happening with the fellow scouts. It gives me hope for him and for the future. Aside from that, the weather was really decent, it wasn't sunny but it didn't rain too much and there was practically no wind, we didn't even need jackets! I was really thankful for that.
The day ended on such a positive note. I was really grateful for that since the earlier part of the day was so tough. I also slept really good which almost never happens.
Today is a better day so far. Hopefully it is a good day for you too!