What does GOD think of me?
What does God think of me?
Today I was asked a question that I’m not normally asked. I was asked what I thought God thinks of me. I would like to say that I answered everything that my childhood beliefs have taught me; that God is loving, forgiving, merciful and gracefilled. But sadly, that was not the case. My description of what God thinks of me was closer to a removed father, who looks at my life and can't help but feel disappointed. I imagine Him shaking his head, uttering a few ‘tsk’s', punctuated by a large shrug and sigh, as he observes a promising life that has turned out so mediocre.
So I was issued a challenge to re-frame or re-think what God thinks of me. But how was I going to accomplish this? What task would help me do this? A task that is probably the most difficult one for a recovering perfectionist - DO nothing! Just observe. Observe what a healthy father/daughter relationship looks like.
So this evening, as I sat down to dinner with my husband and my daughter, I began to observe. I saw a father who seemed thrilled with his daughter and his daughter's attention. I watched as they laughed, talked, he listened, she told stories and asked questions, and her Daddy did his best to answer them. I saw connection, adoration, and when showered with the love of her father, the face of a little girl who shone brighter than the evening sun that was streaming through our livingroom window.
I want to be that little girl, seeking to know and be known, allowing myself to love and be loved, resting in the care and attention of a doting Heavenly Father!
Becoming Ordinary: Day 9