Together We Stand
I remember it like it was yesterday, I had just gotten saved. Truly saved and everything that God had always proclaimed to be true in and of Himself was coming to life in my life. I was having a hard time getting into my bible and praying. The church I was attending at the time, the pastor there would always encourage us to get around ppl whose strengths were our weaknesses. So, I joined the Monday night prayer meeting that many of the members were attending at our church. I knew no one and an elderly man and his wife approached me, saying that God had a ministry for me to do. Well, in my limited thinking and understanding back then of how God truly works and does things. In my very carnal way of thinking still, I assumed this ministry to begin immediately. What wishful thinking, huh? Wishful thinking, b/c I was assuming God was sending the ministry to me to save me. When it was actually sent to me, for Him to save others. Not realizing and or understanding then, that God calls us to ministry and then trains us for that ministry. That is not an overnight process either. It has taken years and I stand today praising God for that, b/c men will put themselves and other men into ministry. God breaks men for ministry. So, the training and/or breaking began.
Four years later to the month, God is just now starting to draw me into ministry. Many times, I tried in my own efforts to open these doors myself. Just so eager to help, so eager to show others what God has done and can do. But, God knew best and I praise Him today for not letting those doors open. I praise Him for His perfect timing. But since He has pulled me out into ministry over this last month, It has been one door after another... Just as He promised me it would be once the ministry He gave me was birthed. What a journey it has been and I have changed so much. I'm so grateful to Him for that change, what a beautiful thing He has done on the inside of me and will continue to do until the day I die. As He is bringing and raising up the ministry He gave me and has been training me for. I have found Him also grieving my spirit on behalf of my other brothers and sister, who have let pride come into play within their walk with the Lord. Exalting themselves above others, telling themselves they're only holding true to and standing on Gods word. When in fact, its more than just that. There is nothing wrong with standing on and true to Gods word, we are called too. That's not the issue here, thier heart's the issue. It's full of motive, It's full of "SELF".
God has had me at a place for months where, I am just sick of me... Sick of what I want, sick of what I think I have to have, sick of what I think I lost. Just sick and tired of me. I don't believe that's by mistake. I believe that is exactlly where God wants me, I believe that is the place where ministry is birthed from... SELFLESSNESS. Where we end, God begins. I'm thankful for that, thankful that He has taught me and stripped so much of myself from me b/c I would have hurt people. I have hurt people, haven't we all if we are truly honest with ourselves? I have had other brothers and sisters of the faith exalt themselves against me. Proclaiming within themselves to be greater than I, to be greater than others b/c perhaps they saw something more clearer than others or at least they thought they did. As have I. When we take this stand with each other, no one wins. We are not unified and the lost are still dying lost. All we've done is allow ourselves to become distracted. Enemy wins. We are most powerful unified, coming together as the body of Christ and not as individuals. I am merely a room in my fathers house, I am not the whole house. Neither are you. Its when we come together, arms locked tight moving in unity along side each other. Only then, will we begin to gain ground over satan and his principalities. When one of us gets tripped up, we should all stand together still unified helping our brother or sister to get back up. To regain the sight and vision of our Kingdom, so that the lost will see and come to know our King. Love y'all.