Phase Out- Take A Break!!
I’m a quirky person. I’ve tried to advertise my quirks as being part of my charm, even if they’re annoying. It’s all a part of me. However, I’m trying to get a leash on some of my quirks. The one that apparently makes me look mean and come off like a bitch is one of them. Or is that two?
I was informed that I am a frowny person. That’s odd for me to be told that since I am usually laughing about something. My co-workers think I am strange sometimes because I will be sitting by myself and suddenly start giggling to myself about something that I am either reading or looking at. I generally think that pretty much everything is funny in some sort of way.
I do have a serious face. I don’t mean to walk around with it showing all of the time. I’m also a thinker by nature and it’s quite possible that I am on another planet at the same time that I appear to be “frowny”. I’m trying not to have such a serious face. I can’t stop thinking about it though. Which probably makes me look frowny. Then I get caught up on that and attempt to plaster at least a smirk. Then I look gassy.
I just can’t win.
I have a name for the "frowny" or "serious" look that some of us are simply just born with. It's called "Chronic Bitch Face". It sounds more like a disorder but when I explain my condition it usually gets a laugh out of someone.
Even if I were to walk around with an ethereal, Mona Lisa smile, someone would find something wrong with that. Come to think of it though, that is kind of weird. I mean really. Who does that? The insane walk around with awkward smiles. People who know me might ask, “Is Jenn smiling or is she showing her teeth? ”
I’ve been in a weird mood lately. I go through this occasionally where I get tired of people and simply impatient in general. I’ve been fairly irritable and intolerable of the human race as a whole. I do have a lot going on, but usually I have a pretty good grip on the issues and it doesn’t affect my mood or how I treat others. It’s not a good thing to being used to being stressed out.
Right now my biggest gripe is the govnerment shut down. Two reasons.
Reason #1 is becuase I have friends who work for the government. They are going to work yet they aren't getting paid. I'm sorry but an IOU from your boss doesn't put food on the table or gas in your car.
Reason #2 is because my boyfriend and I have had a pretty sweet hiking trip in the Smoky Mountains planned for awhile and reservations that we are unable to break. While there are state parks available, it isn't the same thing.
Im highly disapointed.
Life is pretty frustrating. I generally have a good grip on situations or I fake it real well. Considering all that I handle, I’m doing pretty good. I do however, go through phases where I just want to be left alone and I turn into a Hermit and just keep to myself for a little while. I also, though it’s all inside of my head, become quite critical and judgemental of others during this phase. Lucky for myself and others, this is all inner dialogue.
There are times when I listen to people around me speak and I want to plug my ears and shake my head whilst singing “LAA LAAA LAA…..LAAA LAAA LAAA” . I can’t sit silent and nod and listen to the problems that others are creating for themselves with my usual unbiased opinion, non judgement and patience like I normally do. I just want to tell you what your problem is, tell you you’re a big dummy, to go away and then go make myself a snack.
I probably look something like this..
I do like plaid. I own a lot of plaid. An embarassing amount of plaid. This photo is probably what I will look like in twenty years. I’ll take the plaid over the typical red neck t-shirt with Tweetie Bird on the front, stretch pants and blackened bare feet, because I haven’t worn shoes in days. I can pick up pebbles and shove them into my gums because my teeth fell out.