P90X / Insanity Hybrid Journey Day 4 & 5
August 22, 2013
I did horrible on Day 3 the evening of our dinner plans. I drank too much therefore, eating too much. This then created a binge day for me on Day 4 even though I worked out doing Insanity Pure Cardio which is my favorite routines ever! I hate that I do this. I really hate it when I fail on my diet and routines and am beating myself up over it. I truly just want to live and not worry about all this crap of eating healthy and being healthy. I wish there was a magic pill to be youthful and beautiful.
I have realized that P90X isn't for me. Its darker and depressing to me and cardio is where I really thrive and feel alive. I might incorporate Ab Ripper X and possibly Shoulder and Arms work out once a week but not sure. Well... its friday and the weekend is coming up. I have some anxiety especially knowing that I have screwed up 2 days! Now I have to behave and be healthy all weekend. Don't know how I will do that but to suck it up and be tough! I am not myself these days, being a cry baby and just feel weak this week. Normally I feel tough and strong emotionally and spiritually so not sure what is happening but what I do know is that I love my cardio so I am not doing P90X again until I feel like I am strong again emotionally to not do cardio. Maybe my cardio is my antidepressant. Maybe.