Christmahanusolstickkah 2015, Hiraeth, and Goodbye.

Over the summer, I met one of the daughters of the family that lived here for 40 years before us. She was elated to meet me in person, and was quick to ask me if she could come over and visit the house. I skirted around the question -- too many unanticipated emotions came crashing into me at once -- and I steered the conversation to more of how this house used to be, before I got my hands on it ....more

Patience, and The White Cat.

An all-white cat shows up on my front porch every morning. His meow sounds almost exactly like Roxy's, so it always takes me a minute to realize the call is not coming from inside the house, so to speak. He is gorgeous ....more

How To Survive The Ashley Madison Hack, From Someone Who's Been There

I'll be honest, when the first reports that the group that hacked Ashley Madison did, in fact, release the user data, I was downright giddy. Having watched my own marriage fall victim to the site and it's purpose (though, honestly, it would have fallen sooner or later as obviously things were not as fixed as I believed and no website or lack thereof was going to replace the work needed from both parties) I felt slightly vindicated all these years later. ...more
"so many women's hearts and lives were being shattered to bits, the rugs pulled out from under ...more

Misery Business, The Vlog Series.

I'll be honest, when the first reports that the group that hacked Ashley Madison did, in fact, release the user data, I was downright giddy. Having watched my own marriage fall victim to the site and it's purpose (though, honestly, it would have fallen sooner or later as obviously things were not as fixed as I believed and no website or lack thereof was going to replace the work needed from both parties) I felt slightly vindicated all these years later. And for the record, yes, I checked for his email ....more

On Self-Love, Forgiveness, and Magic.

I've been thinking a lot about self-love, lately. It's come up numerous times in therapy, as well as in my online support groups and my social circles. I see quotes and poems pop up on Pinterest and Instagram; I read articles upon articles shared in my Facebook feed or sent to me through private messages ....more

In The Span Of A Summer.

There is still so much that is up in the air, right now. Nothing is finalized, yet. I can't really talk about any of it, either, because that's just life as it is these days ....more

On Scents and Sheets.

{Ed. note: I wrote this almost a month ago. I've been sitting on it, unsure of wanting to share, but I think it's the first step in a process I've begun that I'd like to talk more about, so, here it is ....more

Sisters, From Other Misters.

"Mommy, tomorrow we go see Mr. Map?" I am trying to tuck her into bed after a second late summer night in a row. Freshly bathed and avoiding the actual tucking-into-the-bed part, her tiny voice lilts with excitement and joy ....more

On Re-Entry.

I went to NYC for BlogHer '15 and all I got was an extreme re-entry hangover. To be blunt, this trip was The Thing I Had To Look Forward To, when in my darker moments over the last couple of months, people with concern weighing their voices heavy would ask what I had to keep me going, to get me out of bed each morning and through my days without harm. If I could just get to mid-July, if I could just get to my roommates and the other people who love me, if I could just get back to the city and to learning and to expanding and to a moment to breathe away from everything that weighs me down here at home, then maybe .. ....more