My New Normal

I’m still here…I think this is the longest break I’ve had from blogging.Wasn’t intentional.  Nor lazy.  Nor anything.Just didn’t write.I didn’t forget — I jotted down a half a dozen things to write about…then?blankstaring at the blinking cursorblankNot sure why.  Tried to figure it out.  Then?I let it go……me?Yep, I let it go.  Not my normal……...more

6 years

6 years.  He has spent 6 years in elementary school.  He went in as a little boy.  Scared to go to "big school".  Shy.  Not sure about it all.  About all those rules.  And writing.  And learning.And now?He graduated 5th grade.HE GRADUATED 5TH GRADE!I didn't embarrass him by crying.  I 'might' have passed a tear, but kept it under wraps.This kid is generous, kind, witty.He's a scientist, thinker, dreamer.He complains about the things he has NO interest in.  Repeatedly....more

I'm a Mom

Happy Mother’s Day. To everyone that is a mom, helps mom, fills in for the mom…….all of you.I’m a mom.  I have two awesome wild redheaded boys.  They are a joy, a pain the the ass but the greatest thing I’ll ever do.  Ever try.I’m not the perfect mom.  Or the super mom.  Or the best mom.I’m just a mom....more

Have it All? Negative

I was thinking about the commentary:Women can have it all....marriage/kids/career.ALL.  (Not sure I understand the "all" statement)Not really....I mean, you can "have" it.  Yes.But can you manage it?Me?  I don't see me managing it all well.  All aspects.....even good most of the time.Now, I've dropped the "marriage" qualifier.  That's honestly not a huge change in the "have it all" discussion.  It's hard.  Period.  And I appreciate those of you that it isn't hard to do it all.  ...more

Really? Yes, Really

Well, I’m divorced.  We’ve covered that.  Praise Neptune.He came to get his “final list” of stuff from the house.Final…..yes final.  The damn fourth time of GETTING crap.So, we endure that side show of taking things “off the list”.It’s done.Let’s fast forward to over a week later.  During the trading of the kids…..I hear, “Do you have that Christmas ornament?  The one…..”…………………..…………………..………………….....more

Friends, Friends and more Friends

During this whole process of divorce-assery, I’ve realized I’m a lucky girl.I have:...more

An Open Letter to My Ex-Husband

Ex-Husband,(no salutation necessary)As of yesterday, we are officially divorced.  Finally.Thank you — for not only wasting 16 years of my life, but another full year in divorce.  We ended up on the settlement where we would have been 8 months ago.  Thanks for taking up more of my life.  Thanks for costing more money.Thank you — for making me realize what you were doing during all those times you were detached from us.  Me. The boys....more
adelewishnot YOU GO!!!!!!!  The struggle...the lies.....the utter bs.  And?  We are stronger ...more

One WHOLE Year

 I filed for divorce today.  One year ago.One.  Full.  Year.365 days.I remember I was in shock.I remember I was nervous.I remember I had some tears.I remember thinking “oh, he will want to do this the ‘nice’ way”.I remember I thought we could agree.I remember that I couldn’t believe what he told me.I remembered thinking “it can’t get worse”.It did....more

Snow/Ice/Other Crap

We’ve had “the big one”….the one we get threatened with every year….but this time?Ice…lots of iceSnowMeltingRefreezingSnowRecord low tempsMore snow forecastThis is the South.  Kids are out of school the entire week.  Yes…they just said “to hell with it”.  And?  I’m not surprised....more

The World

The world is scary. No, I mean SCARY. Not just headlines. Not just news. Not what’s trending. Not the latest gossip.True fear.True things that you didn’t think were out there in the world.True monsters.True sadness.True depth of sickness.True sheer terror from people.I see it on social media with my friends and family.I hear of it from others.Personal fear. Personal sadness. Personal....more