Mom and Grandma: My Heart
These are two of the most important people in my life. I love them with all of my heart. They are everything that I need to be happy. Everything that I do now, revolves around them. That's why I'm an online college student and why I am working from home. Because Mom needs me to be here, especially when she goes to work to help take of Grandma or on days like today, when her back hurts and she don't feel like doing anything.
Probably, because I won't let her do much. I'm protective that way. (Actually, I'm overprotected. It's one of my biggest flaws.)
Anyway, I am determined to give them the life that they richly deserve. They've been through a lot and they've always had to do it on their own and when my Gramdfather was alive, they had him to lean on and his family meant everything to him.
Well now, I feel that it's time for me to give back to them. It's time for me to help them out, so that they don't have to deal with the same things they've gone through. I want to be able to pay bills for them and help them both get out of debt. I know that I've got school debt of my own, but, these two are my everything. Seeing them worry about bills and debt, upsets me. But, I will correct this for them If it takes all that I've got, I will do it.
I am not trying to be the richest person or the most famous. I just want to provide a good life for my family. I want to help them smile. We've got a lot going on, taking care of Granny. It would be nice to have other worries disappear. I am sure that many of you know exactly what I'm talking about. If you are not taking care of an elderly family member, then I'm sure that you know someone who is.
Many people want us to put Granny somewhere, (Take a guess as to where they want us to put her!) and they feel like we're taking on to much. But, there is something that I find absolutely fascinating. So many people have all of these ideas as to what we should with her, but if we need someone for something, guess how many hands go up into the air? Well, let's just say, that we see a whole lot more air than we see hands. It is really interesting to me.
I find that this saying that I heard years ago is very true. "One Mother can take care of twelve children. But, twelve children can't take care of one mother." This is unfortunate, but true. Mom and I are taking care of Grandma. But, she's raised her family, their families, their families' families and now, it's just two of us taking care of her. But, you know what, I technically wouldn't have any other way. It gets hard and challenging.
It pains me to hear her crying in pain. It pains me more than you can possibly imagine! But, I must say, things are getting better. Slowly, we're making progress.
Mom works incredibly hard as a nurse. She's been nursing for a long, long, time. She was nursing for almost ten years before I was born. I want to help her relax and have a debt free life. I know that it'll take some time, but I believe in myself. One thing that I can say, is that I can't count myself out. I have to believe that I can give them a good life and help them enjoy themselves. Both of them have given up so much for my benefit. It's time for them to see that the person that they've raised and the hard work they've done, isn't in vain. It wasn't for nothing.
I've always wanted to be like them and I don't know if I'll ever be half as great as they are. But, as I always say, If I can be an eighth of an eighth as great as they are, then I'll be good.