Life goes on...honestly it does!
Life goes on...this is therapy for me. The start of my new positive outlook on life by wiping away the negative and sharing, so others can see how life goes on. I am sure my story will ring true with thousands of other women, but if little old me can get through the last 2 months and see the positve then so can you...
I had always thought I was happy. But with the benefit of hindsight I realise that I was coasting and losing energy rapidly.
Two months ago I found out my partner of 20 years, and husband of 10 was seeing another woman, he had known her for 6 months and had been "seeing" her outside of work for 3 weeks. The cliche of mid life crisis could have been written for him. He even had the nerve to utter the line :
"I love you but am not in love with you"
The earth shattering moment occurred exactly 10 hours after I confirmed he was having an affair by taking a look at his emails. Not something I had ever felt the need to do before, I trusted him implicitly. But there was a niggle, a doubt that crept up on me after a week of no calls, no texts, and no emails. He was always so good at contacting me when he was working away from home.
So why did I check his emails that fateful Friday morning, well the man that climbed into bed with me on the Thursday night was so cold and distant that he really didn't want to be there. I think he wanted to be found out, he had done absolutely nothing to cover his tracks, not getting in touch was just one of the signs. There were others, but I will save those for another time.
I wanted to know the truth, I could have buried my head in the sand and kept on going with the marriage, but I wanted to know. So when he got home from work that Friday night I asked him straight up, what was going on.
Nothing prepared me for his response. he admitted everything, and then said he wanted a divorce.
No warning shots, no let's talk about this, no I have made a stupid mistake. Just simple and honest I want a divorce, I am in love with Liv, and not with you!
My happy married life ended in that single moment.