School has started. For me and my child: Senior year. When I was in high school, it was an exciting time. Almost an adult but not quite. I would not say it was the best time of my life (if it was, then it would be quite sad, since I believe that the best time is always the present). But besides being exciting, I find it quite stressful. Looking at what colleges to apply to, what financal aid packages to fill out and the most stress is that this time next year, he will be alway at college. Will he be ok? Will he make friends? Will he get accepted to a good college? So many questions and situtations that are out of my hands. It is enough to keep me awake at night, tossing an turning. Being a single parent, I get double the worry.
When I have a clear mind, the rational part of me tells me that, I have raised a great kid. I know that all parents say this but I really feel that he is a great kid. I'm proud of him, he gets good grades, polite, respect his elders but part of my can't help but worry.
Will he have enough to eat? My siblings have pointed out that no matter where he goes to college, there are things called 'supermarkets' and if he can't cook there is always McDonalds. Also in the dorms there are things called ' meal plans'. I guess its that time has flown by too quickly. When his dad and I separated he was so young and I always thought well there's always tomorrow. Tomorrow is almost here, I can only hope that he will find a college that he will feel good at and have a memorable college life.
I'm getting old. I don't feel old (well, most of the time). My bff mentioned that next year when he is in college, maybe I should think about dating. Dating, what a frightening word. How do people date now? Most importantly, how do you go about meeting men that you want to date? I'm too old for bars (unless I come in to money and become a cougar, ha). You know I feel good about myself and do not think that I need a man to become complete. My friend introduced me to this man, who is 10 years older than me. I laughed but we exchange emails. He seems nice but part of me have no interest in meeting, but I'm open to having more friends. I don't need drama, but my bff said ' Everyone needs some drama, if only to feel alive'. Is that true? If that is true, my ex has given me enough drama this past 6 years to drain me.
I'm pretty set in my ways. I think I'm a pretty cool person.