Going Through The Motions
Heartache is a horrible thing. The true pain life brings is scary and unpredictable. I thought I knew this world was ugly when I was in college but little did I know how ugly it could really be. The vast waters of sin are beyond my comprehension. Although my eyes have seen but a taste, I can't fathom the root of where this evil really lays and nor do I want to.
"Our world is so big and scary out there" so they say in all the movies, but if that is true, than how much bigger is our God? How much bigger is our sin? How much bigger is heaven and how much bigger is hell? These are all questions that we get scared to think about, but the fascinating part is, this is all we should think about. Christ came for us, made us and wants to bring us home with Him, yet we get so distracted by the daily troubles of life forgetting about what truly matters.
There was a song on the radio other day that I haven't been able to shake from my memory. It said this: "I don't want to spend my whole life asking, what if I had given everything, instead of going through the motions." I know we all can relate to this on some level or another, especially with different seasons of our life. What a horrible feeling to come to the end of your life wishing you had given it your all...but hadn't. What if you decide today you will do your best with the Lord's help? How would your life change, what purpose would you fulfill that you wouldn't otherwise? What regrets would not be there and how many people might you have touched?
This one sentence brought such conviction to my heart but as the day progressed my motions slide quickly back into routine. I don't want to let my days be a waste, my conversations be worthless and my mind to be on things that I will never remember the next day, week or months. Being married can help gauge how you are doing. Sometimes this is a good thing and sometimes it's not. I look back on the past couple years of marriage and see how far we've come. But, in the same breath I also see how we haven't moved at all. Within those feelings I have to separate what matters and what doesn't. Evaluating the things we've come far in; is it worldly items and pleasures, or is it of value? That is a tough answer for me and if I am completely honest it's a good combination. I would rather it be of value than not. And though my combination of the two may seem good, but if you really think about it, do the worldly things even compare to heavenly things? No, not at all!
This doesn't mean, don't be thankful in the little things and the worldly pleasures. Christ created this world to be for His glory. I will admit, my little pleasure on a daily basis is drinking my morning cup of coffee. I get such pleasure in this and I get even more pleasure enjoying it with my husband.
Moment of Truth: Are you going through the motions, not giving it your all? How can you make little changes in your day so that when you lay your head to rest, you have confidence that whatever circumstance come your way, God will say "well done, my good and faithful servant."