Finding Your Inspiration
This past weekend, I was attempting to draw my first picture using a special kind of sketchpad from the craft store and charcoal. I first wanted to learn how to sketch a face and use charcoal because it's my favorite drawing tool in adding detail, definition and "life" to a picture.
The result of it was an American soldier from the Vietname Era that was actually a smiling zombie smoking a cigarette. Not exactly something you'd want to hang in your family-friendly living room, right? But needless to say, I was quite proud of it! I showed my mom and she frowned upon looking at it. "That is so...gory!" she said in disgust, which ironically, was a compliment for me because that's what I was aiming for. I messed up on the "regular" face pretty bad and instead, used it to my advantage and turned it into a zombie. I turned on episodes of "The Walking Dead" to use as background music for my ears.
My sources of inspiration when it comes to art, whether it's writing/blogging, drawing or doing something crafty, aren't pretty things. They aren't sunshines, rainbows and true love everlasting.
Most of it comes from the very dark and gloomy aspects of life. As someone that's really into paranormal investigation, I've had my share of visiting haunted places where they are said to roam with the spirits of the dead, some of them that died in tragedies (for example, in the picture above, I was in a room at an old club where someone shot themselves in the head). I've had my share of paranormal experiences as well. For a long time, I thought maybe something was wrong with me because I liked so many of these "dark things", especially for someone who strongly believes in God and tries to practice her Christian faith on a daily basis. I could never connect with fellow believers about it because the subjects of the "dark things" I like were frowned upon.
But fast forward to now, and I am creatively content in taking things that are hidden in the shadows, that are unseen, looked at as scary, ugly, and dark and finding the beauty in them. Some may see an old, decreped house, I see a mysteries of history waiting to be solved. Some may see cemeteries as depressing and sad, I find comfort in knowing we have beautiful reminders of our loved ones and their lives. Some may see ghosts and unreal, fake, or even demonic...I see them as a possibility that there is more beyond life after that we will ever know but there's beauty in the mysteries behind them.
Whatever others may dismiss, others may see the beauty in them and in turn...it draws the inspiration for whatever craft that person may wish to master. To truly let that inspiration, whatever that may be, fuel the creative force in your life is one of the most liberating feelings you can ever experience! So whatever your source of inspiration may be, don't let others deter you from that and allow yourself to truly be content with what inspires you to turn your imagination into the art you want it to be.