Dreams, Tears, and Memories at BlogHer'14
I’ve never said this aloud or written about it before because it’s painful. It’s sad. And it makes me feel pathetic for even thinking it. But it’s true. I cannot count the number of times that I’ve gotten discouraged by the bloggy world because I don’t know if I can ever fit in. If I can ever reach the audience that I want to reach. If I will ever build the tribe that I’m hoping I can inspire and empower. If I should even continue to hope for the support and network that seems to come so easily to my white counterparts and is such a struggle for me to achieve.
This is probably what had me in tears the most during this weekend. The fact that thoughts like this even exist. And the fact that so many black women bloggers feel the same way. It breaks my heart. And makes me wonder if this is place where I belong – in this “mom bloggers” world.
One of the nicest surprises of the conference was the first-ever event where the band, The Mrs., was launching their first single, Enough, at BlogHer. It was kind of wild because the song seemed like it was meant for me. I really do feel like the powers that be knew I needed that – and I’m sure I wasn’t alone.
SN: Definitely need to bring more tissue with me next time.
In addition to Arianna, I got to meet Guy Kawasaki, The Bloggess (who is absolutely fabulous with a hilarious best selling book that I’m currently reading), Peg Fitzpatrick, and Julie Deneen – both of whom I’ve been interacting with online for the past year.
I also got an opportunity to hear directly from Kerry Washington which was ahh-maze-balls. Like seriously, I’m a total gladiator so I cannot even describe how great it was to listen to Kerry talk about being a woman in the public eye, making decisions based on her core values, and speaking out on issues that matter most to her heart. I loved every second.
Another highlight was meeting Khloe Kardashian, who was a complete sweetheart. I'm not sure what I expected, I don't watch their reality shows or follow their lives, but she was very nice. Of course it didn't hurt that as I walked towards her she looked me in the face, smiled, and said "You're so pretty!" Yea, she's definitely my fave for life. :)
The icing on an already drool-worthy layered cake was Rev Run of Run DMC who performed at the closing party. I was in the front, then second, then third row (pushed around much?) but still had a great view of the King of Rap. My sister, who’s barely an eighties baby, has to be so jealous of me right now. I sent her this video of him performing one of her favorites just to make sure of it. Haha. I love her so. *insert innocently evil grin*
So for my first BlogHer conference, their tenth anniversary shindig blew me away. I was extremely impressed with their attention to detail and the power packed agenda. Although I had long booked my trip to BlogHer when I first met Elisa, one of the BlogHer co-founders, at the Blogging While Brown conference last month, meeting her there and seeing her again this weekend affirmed my commitment to her organization.
BlogHer'14 it was a total hit. I absolutely believe in and am inspired by what BlogHer stands for; and I will do everything I can to support and further their mission.