Depression will not win over my life.
Since I was 27 years old I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder also known as clinical depression. Most recently I was then diagnosed bipolar disorder. I swear doctors have a name for any ailment in your mind and body. So since then I have been on a variety of different anti depressant. I now take three medications per day. So you may wonder what life is like in the mind of a woman with my illnesses. The truth sometimes I can't even tell when I having a manic epiosde, and it happens so naturally that I nearly miss the event persay. I hate depression since my divorce four years ago, I have been on this emotional rollercoaster. My depression usually starts with lethargy, isolation and anger. I find myself sitting alone in my thoughts and not wanting to be bothered by anyone. I can stay this way for day's or week's at a time if no one's calls in concern. My friend's say things like " Oh you over there isolating again huh". They know me well. So I have been in a lot of pain emotional. Yes I miss my husband, I miss the family we shared with one another. I miss being a wife. But I have decided to take back my life September 7' 2013 will be my independence day. The day I get back to living life free from depression, isolation and anger. The truth is that I am fearful , but I will not allow anything from stopping me from pursing my dreams. Yes I struggle in my sobriety but I'm declaring war !!!!!! I want myself to commit to be a good friend and mother. I will not let depression destroy me. I'm a fighter. I am a strong black woman, God has done so much greater than I have ever imagined. When the sun rises I will fight for what I want. I can do so much better but I keep settling for less. I declare war over my circumstances and cry out that God be with me.