Can't Wait to Meet YOU
To my unborn, not yet conceived, but unconditionally loved child,
I have been waiting to meet you for as long as I can remember, but having to wait for you has taught me patience, selflessness, and faith. I have to be patient and realize you'll be mine when the world is ready for your life to begin and not a moment before. I have learned selflessness, because it's my own selfish desire to demand you now, but I have to trust His timing. I've had my faith tested time and time again, but I have to have faith that eventually we'll meet.
I imagine meeting you and feeling as though I've always known you. I wil not be afraid as many mothers have warned me I would. I will not be stressed about caring for you because I've prepared myself for you for so long and I will not be unsure about your needs because we were designed to meet each other's needs right from the start.
My hope for you is PASSION! I will model for you a lust for life, an adventure seeking spirit, and a curiosity about things unknown. I will not tell you what to expect, but will stand by and provoke your curiosity so that you may discover for yourself. I will not answer your questions, but I will encourage you to share your thoughts and draw your own conclusions. I will provode you with opportunities to learn, observe, and discover.
My hope for you is LOVE! I will model unconditional love in my love for you and for your father, but I will also allow you to get your heartbroken so that you may learn that real love doesn't hurt. I will put my relationship with your father above all else so that you will feel secure that your parents love you together as one body. I will let you see the trials, tribulations, and obstacles overcome in my relationships with my sisters and family so that you will learn how to express feelings and work through things with loved ones. I will share with you why I chose your father above anyone else in hopes you will become the man he is or marry a man as strong as he is. You will love, be loved, and know love.
My hope for you is LAUGHTER! I will model for you how to find the humor in things that are tough, how to laugh at yourself when you make human mistakes, and how to laugh with your #wholeheart. I will create a home full of laughter for you.
My hope for you is HAPPINESS! I will not become a mother who sacrifices everything in my life for you because I do not want you to be someone who sacrifices your life for anyone else. I don't want you to learn that you're my only source of happiness because that would be a lie, but it would also be unfair pressure on you to make me happy. That's not your job. I'll love you enough to take time for myself and find my own happiness in the things I love and enjoy so that you will learn the value of self care. I will teach you that happiness is a choice and a constant battle to maintain.
My hope for you is HEALTH! I will commit myself to creating a healthy environment and providing you with foods meant for nourishment, not self-indulgence. I will not allow you to be a glutton or gorge yourself on treats just because you want to. I will say "no" to you when you ask for things that are not healthy because I want you to learn that I love you enough to protect your health even if it makes me sad to tell you "no". I will model healthy eating habits and healthy body image so that you will learn to love whole foods, know their value for your body and mind, and love your body for it's abilities, not it's shape.
My hope for you is STRUGGLE! I hope that you struggle so that you will learn success and I will provide opportunities for you to fail so that you will build the desire to succeed. I will not solve your problems for you, but I will be a consultant to help you think through a course of action. I will not make choices for you even when I think you're making a poor choice because I want you to experience the consequences of poor choices so that you'll grow up to make better choices. If I interfere, I'm preventing valuable learning opportunities. You won't like it at the time, but you'll thank me later.