The Best New Year's Ever: My Post-Divorce Experience
I've never liked New Year's Eve. I'm not much of a drinker (OK, I do love my vino, but I'm good with just a glass or two) and I don't like big parties. I prefer to spend time with a handful of people I truly care about, rather than a lot of people I don't know. I've never really understood people's' fascination with New Year's Eve. What are we really celebrating? Going out with our friends? Drinking? We can do that anytime, so what makes New Year's so special?
Nope. I've never liked New Year's...
But this year was different. This year, I truly celebrated New Year's, for perhaps the first time in my life. I embraced it with an understanding like I have never known.
I woke up New Year's Eve morning to a feeling so nice, and so new to me; serenity.
I didn't have to go to a party I didn't want to go to. I didn't have to invite people to my home who I didn't want there. I chose to spend my day with various friends who I really like. My clothing was my own choice, based on my own style and perception of self. I had no pressure to stay out late if I didn't want to, and there was no concern of whether or not I was meeting the expectations of others. I woke up to the reality that for the first time in my life, I was free.
Free to be myself. Free to enjoy what I liked, my friends, my family, and free to make my own choices about not only the activities of the day, but what to do with the rest of my life. The freedom to be fully open to all that life has to offer me, the freedom to take it all in, and the freedom to experience everything.
I can't remember ever in my life feeling such a sense of freedom and hope for the future, as I did when I awoke on New Year's Eve day.
New Year's isn't about the wine (though of course, I had some). It isn't about the parties. It isn't about a shiny ball dropping in the worst part (Times Square) of the greatest city (New York). It isn't about the god-awful music they play on the Dick Clark special (my TV was turned off after 5 minutes of enduring Jennie McCarthy and the threat of Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift about to torture my ear drums). And it isn't about the resolution you make each year (like losing weight), that you never really achieve.
New Year's is about the realization that every day is a new day, full of hope and opportunity. A chance to realize that your life, is YOUR life. You can make it awful, or you can make it spectacular. You can make it a life that you look back on someday and say to yourself, I made it worthwhile.
I have never been so excited about a new year, as I am about 2013. I can feel and see the enormous opportunity in what lies ahead. This past year, I have begun a new journey which has led me to foster much deeper relationships with my friends than I've ever had. I've also made many new friends this year, some I know I will have for life. I have begun to plan for a great future, with a commitment to never settle for a job, but make my work an extension of my passion to create a better world, and to make people happy and feel purpose in their lives. But most of all, I have reconnected with myself, without any external negativity clouding my perception.
I have never been happier in my entire life than I am right now.
Wherever you are, remember there is only one you. And only one life, Make yours count. Know that you can move mountains, and create the life you always dreamed of. It's up to you.
Make 2013, the best year ever.
(I never write while listening to music, but today, I listened to this piece all day. Consider it background music while you read, The Cinematic Orchestra- Arrival of the Birds and Transformations. This piece of music (from the album "The Crimson Wing", is one of the most beautiful pieces of music I have ever heard. Ironically enough the title even represents my feelings towards the new year.)