Asexual and about to be in a polyamorous relationship
I always knew things were weird. Like I mean that I was different. An alienation feeling. And it's not because I am a lesbian or that I'm gay because in fact I am not even bisexual I am straight. I don't want to be a boy or anything, I feel fine in my own body too. I found out basically what the feeling was and meant just last year in 2012.
Alienation. I was asexual.
And I kind of don't understand affection.
If that's what it means to be asexual.
Now, I'm in a relationship with a fantastic man who treats me very well, he's very romantic ,and is very affectionate. And it actually took me a while to get used to the affection. Sometimes it's a little too much. But I actually really enjoy it, because it is how I love as Romance goes, that's how I love, romance is what gets me, and that's romantic, I love through romance, and that's all I care about. Sex just doesn't attract me. I don't care about physical appearance. But I must say my boyfriend is damn handsome.
So we have been talking back and forth for a couple days and we've been thinking about inviting my friend into our lives. She is pretty much in Agoura phobic and struggles from post tramatic stress and has a lot of issues and doesn't get out a lot and she's my best friend and I love her and care about her a lot. My boyfriend knows a lot about her because I talk about her all the time, just met her only once. She tells me that she really needs to get laid. And well I don't really put out a lot. We can all join in and do each other a favor, and help each other, and be really good friends. And it's not all about the sex at all. My boyfriend actually didn't even have that in mind at first I think. He just feels really bad for her. He knows she deserves a better life, and knows that we can give it to her. And all I want is for her to be happy, and I would totally totally not have a problem letting her into my boyfriends bedroom. This is so what I say, and we've only been talking about it, big decision, but I really have a feeling about, about this. But I believe my friend will reject us because she will not want to get in the middle of our relationship and not think that we can handle it or something but I know we can. If any advice I welcome it.