Addiction and Mental Illness
Since the age of 19 I have battled with drug addiction,as well as depression. These two mixed together have wrecked havoc on me as well as those who love me. First at 14 or so I was introduced to street drugs. Needless to say I acquired this disease of addiction. It has been weighing me down for most ten years or so. I can stay consistently absent from drugs.Otherwise I'd be successful. Now don't mistake me for a fool. I happen to be known as dual diagnosed. I am at most highly of a concern to medical doctors. Many like me struggle in both areas at any given time. I wonder is there still hope. I have exhausted every resource available to me . I have tried, treatment facilities, 12 step meeting, as well going cold turkey. Oh how I wish to get better. My life is busy, between my kids, school and doctor appointments. My time is zero to none. As I lay here I think about my life and what will happen with me. Yes I pray. Yes I want to change. I'm at a place where I don't even know where to begin. I live in a drug infested city. My neighbor sells drugs. I no the truth I am an addict. I m not healthy as I should be but I can't give up. I have to fight for my life everyday is a struggle. But I will never never stop fighting these battles. I am courageous, I am determined. I can't worry about tomorrow I just want to make threw day happy joyous and free. Follow me as I travel down this road to wellness. It's September 1'a 2013 . My goal for today is to take my medication as prescribed and stay clean from drugs and alcohol.